Why is it so hard to commit?
My last race was this fall. I raced the CHAD Hero Half Marathon. While I was pleased with my time at the end this race was hard because honestly I did not train like I have in the past for races. I may be in good shape for CrossFit but as far as running shape goes I was undertrained for the half marathon. I worked for every minute of my finish time and it was hard. This was not a feel good like I trained for it race, this was a gut it out and find some speed somewhere race.
Why am I having such a hard time committing to training for races right now? I want to race again but lately life just seems to be getting in the way of scheduling any races. I am in my first year of this solo parenting gig post divorce and sometimes our parenting schedule is not straightforward due to life’s curveballs. I am hesitant to schedule anything in case I might not have kid coverage for the weekend of the race. It is hard to look that far forward and to make plans to race only to have them fall through at the last moment.
I have also been having a tough time getting out and running and having it feel good. I know that this sounds silly but dealing with depression, sometimes when I run I get too in my head with thoughts about what has happened in my life and then my running gets bogged down. Perhaps I need to change things up and run with music rather than running without? Maybe I need to change my running routes and run with friends more.
Maybe it is the winter weather that is getting to me. Have I become soft????? It’s hard to imagine training hard through the cold and messy winter weather even though I trained to qualify for Boston and for the Boston Marathon many times through exactly the same weather.
Perhaps I am just making excuses . . . I need to just bite the bullet and to sign up for a half marathon and get off my butt and start training!
Do you ever have a hard time committing to training for races?