I am back! Yesterday I ran a beautifully sweaty and muggy 6 miles on Vermont dirt roads with my best friend and training partner Bridget.
Wow! I had really missed my regular runs with Bridget and the release that comes from running.
The weather was hot and muggy. The air so thick that sweat was forming on my forehead after only a few easy minutes. And yes, the sweat felt amazing!
I need my regular dose of endorphins! This run was medicine for my mind, body, and spirit. I have been feeling quite out of whack since finally stopping taking Zoloft (antidepressant) after almost three years. My body has been trying to readjust to its “normal” chemistry (HA!) and I have been experiencing waves of vertigo all week). Thankfully running has help to calm the sensation of being on a rocking boat and the need to curl up on my couch in the fetal position.
I began taking Zoloft after my second child was born after severe postpartum depression kicked in for the second time. I am not one to like taking medicine but at that point in my life it was a necessary option and brought me peace at a time where I needed it. I tried to stop taking it last summer but unforeseen circumstances in life did not allow that to be a good choice for me at that time.
So here I am trying again and feeling optimistic as I have made a lot of positive changes for me to bring my Libra scales back into balance.
I am stronger now both physically and mentally.
I have gained more self-confidence about the direction that my life is taking. I love being a mom although sometimes it is he hardest job. I love my job with our family business working in social media in a celebration of some of my true passions-healthful eating and sustainable farming.
I love writing this blog because it has brought me to a new community of people who celebrate each others amazing accomplishments and also who support each other through motivation, inspiration, and guidance. I love how my blog has brought me clarity to be able to choose new goals and to go for them jumping in feet first (rather than sitting on the sidelines as my perfectionist personality sometimes wants me to).
I am making steps towards becoming a Certified Holistic Health Counselor through the Institute of Integrative Nutrition and have completed the requirements to being establishing my coaching practice and working with clients. I want to help guide others on their holistic journey to better health and well-being. I can’t wait to begin setting up my practice and feel that others can benefit from my personal journey.
So now here I am trying life out again free of the added support of any medicine (no more antidepressants!). It is a big crossroad for me and one that scares me a little bit because I do not want to feel the loss of control again and the great overwhelming dark sadness that is depressionagain.
I will make it out this time. I know I have you cheering me on (in more ways than one).
It’s time to take that step!
Please tell me about a time when you have had to take difficult steps in your life.