My last marathon was the Boston Marathon in 2017. I qualified to run in 2018 at the 2017 Boston Marathon but when I submitted my time it still wasn’t fast enough because so many fast runners had applied to run. I can’t say that I am sad that I missed Boston last year because last year the weather proved to be terrible-snow, wind, rain, and cold. I missed all of the festivities surround marathon Monday but definitely wasn’t that bummed to miss running in that weather. Although for some people it still proved to be perfect weather . . . my friend Jenny still ran a 3:05! Now with Boston Marathon Monday today I am feeling a bit sad that I am not running . . .although I am definitely not in marathon shape. There was always something to chasing those marathon PR’s and chasing the BQ (Boston qualifier). As I climb back towards good half marathon shape I am in awe of my former marathon running self for the extreme dedication that it took to achieve what I did with my marathon times . . . my best being a 3:33.33. Right now I am not sure if I could ever or actually want to ever chase down my former marathon self. The training is grueling. The miles are endless and the results on race day don’t always match up with what you have trained for and are ready for. What is it that drives us to chase these goals?
For now I am taking a break from marathons and sticking to shorter distances, currently the half marathon is my goal distance. That doesn’t mean however that I have forever abandoned the idea of another marathon or maybe a 50K??? Perhaps if I were to run a marathon again it would be different. Maybe I could do one for a charity like my first one for Team In Training (Leukemia and Lymphoma Society). If I ran for a charity would I be able to take the pressure off of myself and not race it solely for time but rather to just run and experience it? Is it possible to let go of chasing those PR’s and race distances fully. I am not really sure but for now I am just happy to be able to get out and run. I am excited to be getting ready to race again and we’ll see what the future holds.