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Embracing Vulnerability

Embracing Vulnerability

Embracing Vulnerability

Embracing Vulnerability

Today I had a therapy session where I shared my blog post Regaining Control with my therapist. Sometimes it is easiest to spill it all and to let go in written form rather than to talk about what is going through my head. This blog while often filled with fun and fluff has also become an outlet for me to share some of my deepest thoughts and feelings. This year in the aftermath of my divorce I have been forced to confront my emotions head on and to really take a deeper look at myself and what I want in this beautiful life. My therapist commended me on my bravery in sharing my thoughts with the world (my small group of loyal blog readers) and said that it takes true courage to let others in on the hard things and emotions that may be swirling around.

What I have discovered recently is that I often hide my true feelings or thoughts for fear of opening myself up to vulnerability. But since my divorce I have felt more out in the open, more raw, and more vulnerable than I ever had. I am working hard to embrace this vulnerability. I am working hard to confront the feelings that I am having and working on being more vocal about what is going on. As I grew up I learned to control my feelings. I often buried what I was feeling inside leaving me open to hurt and disappointment because I didn’t truly express the things that were going on.

When I fell apart last year, there were probably many people in my life that never saw it coming. I hid the true depths of the darkness that was surrounding me for fear of letting others in, for fear of being judged. I didn’t want to be that vulnerable. I am learning though that it is ok to tell others that, “you know what . . . I’m not ok” or “I’m really hurting inside.” By being more vulnerable and letting others in we gain support and find those people who will truly be there for us. I am also learning that without being vulnerable to others we may miss the wonderful opportunity of connection. If we open ourselves to others we may find the wonderful connections that we were needing. Being vulnerable can open doors, it can create relationships. It can be scary to be so open but the rewards can be so very great. By allowing myself to be more open I am finding new strengths and confidence that I haven’t felt before. By being vulnerable I am feeling more empowered.

It’s a learning process one that I am working hard to embrace.

Do you embrace your vulnerability?

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15 responses

15 responses

  1. I love you, Sandra. It is so hard to be open and vulnerable. I’m glad you’re learning to share your feelings. I’m sure you’re also helping others who are dealing with some of the same emotional issues. <3

  2. I am glad that you are able to use this blog as a space to express your feelings. I know it can’t be easy and we all appreciate your openness.

  3. I can definitely identify with this post. I felt the same leading up to my divorce and after for quite some time. I did find wants I started opening up, other people were going through something similar and that helped me tremendously. Thanks for opening up and sharing with us.

  4. Being vulnerable, especially online, is so tremendously difficult but it definitely helps me when I write a super honest/personal post and just let it go. I think you are VERY brave and have been though this entire process. I absolutely loved the way you told me you were getting a divorce – very matter of fact and like “I’m not ok but I’m doing this” – and I really try to be that way in my real life (not just on the blog) but, as you know, it’s incredibly hard. If you keep doing the hard work (like in training!) you will get the results you want. xoxoxo

  5. Vulnerability is a scary arena…but it’s something we all encounter. I think it’s a sign of strength to embrace it as you are doing…facing it head-on (rather than hiding behind it …or from it) gives you a chance to connect with others who have experienced it as well, and we all can build each other and support one another on our journeys.

  6. It is very scary to open up and be vulnerable but I find that it pays off to let a chosen few in. When I was going through a tough time last year, letting a couple of people know I was not okay really helped me move past my pain. Writing is a great way to let it all out too. Glad you’re willing to open up to us!

  7. It’s always nice to read that people are using the internet to connect with others and to express their feelings. It’s not that common these days. I’m happy for you, and I hope, you’ll be doing great!

  8. I can totally relate to this, I used to always have a hard time showing my true feelings as I wanted to be the “happy, nice” person. It was only when I went through a really tough crisis in my life that I learned it was necessary to let out anger, sadness, and all of the other emotions I was feeling. I really appreciate you sharing your story so candidly, it has been very helpful to me!! xo

  9. It’s really tough to be completely honest and open with yourself. Forget about putting it out on front street. You keep doing what you feel is right and that will never be wrong.

  10. Being vulnerable can be so scary! Like stepping out in faith and not knowing how you will be received!
    In this world of social media, where so many are trying to show a perfect image, I welcome and embrace those who show their real struggles. I am proud of you for sharing, and I come along side you and support you as you work through your emotions!
    Thank you for sharing this part of your story! It is so refreshing and encouraging to me to continue to be vulnerable in my own space.

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