Boston Marathon training update . . . Not really.
Was I supposed to be training for the Boston Marathon? I may have been lost on a tropical island . . .
Did you miss me? I took a brief hiatus from the blog while literally being whisked away to a tropical island. I was lucky enough to spend all of last week in Punta Cana in the Dominican Republic. We were there for a wedding and it was so much more. This vacation completely filled me up. Being an extrovert living where I live can be hard sometimes. I live in a tiny town in Northern New Hampshire where life is often quiet and uneventful. While there are many aspects about this life that I love, I do often find myself feeling quite lonely. This time of year can be so hard too because of the cold and the endless dark and that is not even including all of the time after the sun goes down. The days have been so gray here. The sun is an occasional visitor. I am thankful for so much of what I have in my life but I admit I have been struggling lately. My daughter is still not 100% healthy and we are not sure why. As a mom of course this does have me feeling worried although so far nothing of note has shown up to be officially worried about. But if you are a mom, you get it . . . being a mom can be tough and it can be hard NOT to feel worried.
I have been struggling to feel like I fit. My days have been passing with running, writing, and “momming” and a lot of time alone. I have become more accustomed to the quiet but this extrovert gets lonely. Going on vacation was a breath of fresh air that I needed. And I have come to a realization that I need to shake things up around here a bit. I am not sure yet what exactly that looks like but I recognize that I am in a rut and I need to get out of it! When we were in the Dominican Republic we spent our days with a crazy, energetic, full of laughter, humor and life group of people. Even though I only knew a handful of people at the start of the trip, by the end I felt as though I had gained many new friends. The trip was obviously a celebration of the love of two people (one who my husband has know since his high school days) and you could feel the positive energy as the week went on (we may have been enjoying some cocktails pool and beachside too).
But, seriously . . . I easily felt like a member of this group and the week long “friendship” was refreshing. During the trip we also reconnected with two dear friends who had moved away when our kids were small. I spent the week giggling with my friend Joelle and many people even thought we were sisters. I have been missing that kind of closeness in friendship. That kind of friendship is something that is hard to capture but once you click with someone like that you know you will be friends forever. I know, that I am sounding gushy but it is true.
The wedding ceremony and reception were just perfect and we all danced the night away. There was a lot of dancing during the trip. That counts as marathon training, right?!?!
I’m not going to get too far into the details of this trip for its one of those, “you had to be there” kind of things. It was an experience that I wish I could bottle up and break out on a gloomy day to fill me up with love, laughter and friendship. Now the goal is to work hard on finding those things in my own days and to shake off the gray cloud that has been hanging over my shoulders for a while now. I feel like an object in a snow globe that has been shaken hard until a blizzard swirls and when everything settles it lands in a different place with a fresh new perspective.
As far as a training recap during the vacation let’s just say, I swam, I ran and I lifted but definitely not as much as a I could have. I needed this vacation reboot to regroup and rest and recover. Now with the Boston Marathon quickly getting closer its time to buckle down and put in some serious work.
Do you ever just need to shut down, retreat and reboot?