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Motivation Monday: Taking the first step.

Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step . . . #inspiration, #motivation

Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step . . . #inspiration, #motivation

And GO!

I am back! Yesterday I ran a beautifully sweaty and muggy 6 miles on Vermont dirt roads with my best friend and training partner Bridget.

Finally a long run (6 miles)

Finally a long run (6 miles)

My most awesome friend and training partner.

My most awesome friend and training partner.

Wow! I had really missed my regular runs with Bridget and the release that comes from running.

The weather was hot and muggy. The air so thick that sweat was forming on my forehead after only a few easy minutes. And yes, the sweat felt amazing!
I need my regular dose of endorphins! This run was medicine for my mind, body, and spirit. I have been feeling quite out of whack since finally stopping taking Zoloft (antidepressant) after almost three years. My body has been trying to readjust to its “normal” chemistry (HA!) and I have been experiencing waves of vertigo all week). Thankfully running has help to calm the sensation of being on a rocking boat and the need to curl up on my couch in the fetal position.

I began taking Zoloft after my second child was born after severe postpartum depression kicked in for the second time. I am not one to like taking medicine but at that point in my life it was a necessary option and brought me peace at a time where I needed it. I tried to stop taking it last summer but unforeseen circumstances in life did not allow that to be a good choice for me at that time.

So here I am trying again and feeling optimistic as I have made a lot of positive changes for me to bring my Libra scales back into balance.
I am stronger now both physically and mentally.

I have gained more self-confidence about the direction that my life is taking. I love being a mom although sometimes it is he hardest job. I love my job with our family business working in social media in a celebration of some of my true passions-healthful eating and sustainable farming.

Chickens and Kids=My heart is full.

Chickens and Kids=My heart is full.

I love writing this blog because it has brought me to a new community of people who celebrate each others amazing accomplishments and also who support each other through motivation, inspiration, and guidance. I love how my blog has brought me clarity to be able to choose new goals and to go for them jumping in feet first (rather than sitting on the sidelines as my perfectionist personality sometimes wants me to).

I am making steps towards becoming a Certified Holistic Health Counselor through the Institute of Integrative Nutrition and have completed the requirements to being establishing my coaching practice and working with clients. I want to help guide others on their holistic journey to better health and well-being. I can’t wait to begin setting up my practice and feel that others can benefit from my personal journey.

I'm halfway there! Institute of Integrative Nutrition

I’m halfway there!

So now here I am trying life out again free of the added support of any medicine (no more antidepressants!). It is a big crossroad for me and one that scares me a little bit because I do not want to feel the loss of control again and the great overwhelming dark sadness that is depressionagain.

I will make it out this time. I know I have you cheering me on (in more ways than one).

It’s time to take that step!

Please tell me about a time when you have had to take difficult steps in your life.

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9 responses

9 responses

  1. It’s a journey, isn’t it? Just when we think we have things figured out, we find out we don’t! Love the motivational poster and your pictures.

  2. I too struggled with depression and watched it take over all aspects of my life. I was too stubborn to ask for help and too afraid to take medication. I applaud your open and honest message and I am here on the sidelines cheering you on as you take the next step in your journey.

    Congrats on your certification and good luck 🙂

    1. I can totally relate Sarah! The first time I dealt with post partum depression I didn’t want anybody to know about it. The second time I wanted the support of others to help me through what I was going through. How are you doing with everything now?

      Thank you for stopping by the read my blog and for supporting me with what I am going through.

  3. Thank you for sharing your story with us! I am also a Libra and It is soo important for me to have balance in my life and running provides that! I am also battling injury at the moment (Labral Hip Tear) and it has thrown things off for me! but I am persevering with light training to keep my mind off it! all the best for the future I am sure your balance will return soon! 🙂

    1. Ouch! A Labral hip tear sounds very painful. How is your injury progressing now? I hope you are able to get back to running soon and starting to find your balance again. I have been running again and slowly adding miles and it feels so good.

  4. I love your blog. You are in an inspiration to me. I am currently on anti depressants and I am looking to get off. I am also a runner and hoping i can run away my depression. I hate being on anti depressant because I feel like I can not run as fast and as far.
    Also I am a libra to
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    1. Thank you so much Nicole. We all have our challenges that we go through and it is nice to know that we are not alone. Being on antidepressants definitely changes the way I function everyday. I am sleeping better now and starting to feel like my old self.Good luck with everything and definitely keep me posted as to how you are doing. I promise everything will get better.

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